Everyone has had there share of mistakes, Ya I wasn’t perfect but i can honestly say I tried for the longest time. I gave up towards the end of 2012, Its like all my feeling went down the drain. I looked at you with no emotions left in me. You knew it too, we both just couldnt just let go even if we didnt want to be together. I just slowly wondered away and didnt look back. In a way im glad it didnt end on the worst of terms but the relationship just kind of dissolved. During the end of the relationship i did some things that I shouldnt of, I should of just told you instead of it dragging on…. I am sure it went both ways as well even if you will never admit it.
This year has started off questionable for me. It has been rough for me, my mothers still up in Oregon I miss her so much, I know its weird but I don’t even like to call or talk to her because I always end up breaking down. My house seems very empty now. I am glad i work as much as i do keeps my mind off of things that constantly worry me. Its a little weird that Im no longer in a relationship, I haven’t been single since i was about 16-17. My first boyfriend and everything, some people are ment to fall in love but not ment to be together. I except it I feel there’s more to life out there for me. Meeting new people going new places. I really excited for March to come along, I am taking a trip to San Diego with all of my close friends and my Best friend to celebrate my birthday! Than On the 21st my son will be turning 3 where did the time go? Originally we were planning to throw him a big party but I don’t think thats happening anymore. So It will just be a Maxx and mommy day. Maybe take a trip to the San Diego zoo, he loves animals. I am focusing all the good things in my life my healthy baby boy, I have a job, I have a roof over my head food in my fridge and my awesome friends. Good things happen to good people. Even maybe a new budding friendship :P